March 19, 2007

It is a month today that Samantha went to Heaven, it is also today that her baby brother is six months old. A kind of bitter sweet day for us which seems to happen alot. Of course I probably don't have to say how much we miss her but somehow it makes me feel a little better. Although the boys keep us busy there is such an emptiness in our house. It is by no means quiet here but there is a quietness about it. I realized this weekend (after watching her on a video) how much I miss her voice and the sound of her laughter.
I had a dream of Samantha last night for the first time which brought me comfort and to tears at the same time. When I held her in my dream it felt so real, I guess that is where the comfort came from. Then of course I had to wake up to reality. For the most part though we are all doing okay. We all have our good and bad days which are totally expected and we help each other through.
Plans for the "Samantha Britton Memorial Golf Outing" are moving right along. There are a lot of people working at it and we are very thankful to everyone involved. We are hoping it will be as successful as last year so we can make a difference for other families battling this monster that has taken so many beautiful children from us.
Again we would like to thank everyone for the love and support you continue to give to us. You have no idea how much it helps through the most difficult of times.
With love,
Audra, Kurt, Christopher, & Jason

March 5, 2007

It has been two weeks since Samantha passed away, it feels so much longer. We are getting by the best we can. It is so difficult to get used to the "new normal". Of course none of us like it and at times it becomes unbearable but we all get through it some how. There are still moments that it doesn't feel real. I think of her every minute and miss her every second of every day. Thoughts of her beauty bring a smile to my face and I know my sweet princess will always be with me. As a mother it just doesn't seem to be enough.
We want to thank everyone for all the continued support and love you have shown us. The nurses and doctors for the exceptional loving care you gave to Samantha. Family and friends for all the messages, cards, dinners, phone calls, fundraisers and visits that have helped us through the hardest of times and we can't even begin to express our gratitude. There are so many people who have reached out to us during the past year it is incredible and we are forever grateful to each and every one of you.
With Love,
Audra & Kurt