July 16th, 2007

It is hard to believe that we are approaching 5 months since Samantha left us. I still find myself wondering how this is all possible. I guess I will never get used to living life without her and I don't see how it will ever get any easier. The hole that her passing has left in all of us is just so painful. I will never understand how something like this is allowed to happen and why it is happening to so many of our precious children. As hard as we try to move on and live our lives with some sort of normality to them we find that nothing will ever be normal again.

We just returned from New York. We went up to Long Island for the 4th of July to be with family and friends. It was nice to visit with everyone back home but it was also very difficult to be there. I found it to be emotionally overwhelming. Christopher had fun with his cousins/friends but also seemed to be having some emotional issues too. I think it will be a while before we try that again. Maybe we are pushing to hard to feel better to soon, I don't know. Being back in our own home seems to help a bit.

We are working on getting the website for the Memorial Fund and will be posting the web address as soon as it is up and running. Please check back for that information.

We hope everyone is enjoying their summer and thank you once again for continuing to check in on us.

With love,
Audra, Kurt, Christopher, & Jason