April 19, 2007

It is two months today that Samantha passed away. Although it feels like forever I can't believe I haven't been able to hug and kiss her for two months. She will always be with me but it is so hard not to see her, touch her, and hear her voice everyday. As I have said before there is a quietness about our lives that will never change.

Easter weekend went okay for us. We had a tree planting ceremony in our yard in memory of Samantha on Saturday. It was such a thoughtful gift from a beautiful group of people who have touched our lives in so many ways this year. Thank you to all of you.... we love the tree and are so gratetful to have all of you by our side through these tough times. On Easter we did a balloon release and sent Samantha messages of our love. We then went off to the beach. Christopher enjoyed playing ball with Kurt, flying a kite, and swimming. Jason just loved the beach and his new sun hut. The evening was rough but we made it through.

Kurt and I just returned from NY. We went up for the "Samantha Britton Memorial Golf Outing". I had reservations about going this year, fearing I would not be able to handle it so soon, but am so glad I went. Although the weather was terrible it went well. The hard work of our family/friends and generousity of so many caring people made the day a success. We send our deepest gratitude to all of you.
With love,
Audra, Kurt, Christopher, & Jason.

April 5, 2007


I wanted to start by thanking all of you for continuing to think of us. The cards, prayers, and messages have been so touching and do really help us through the rough times.
We just returned from a short much needed vacation. Good friends of ours have a house in the mountains of North Carolina and invited us for a long weekend. It was so peaceful and beautiful there. Christopher had a great time (as did Kurt and I). It was so nice to see the smile on his face that hasn't been there for over a year and for us to spend quality time with friends. The mountain air was great for little Jason too.
Now that we are home and Easter is approaching it seems to have hit us all pretty hard that Samantha is gone. Saying we miss her doesn't even touch the feelings that come over us. I have been told it sometimes gets harder before it gets any better but I had no idea what to expect. I guess there is just no way to prepare yourself for such heartache. I know that Samantha would want for us to be okay. She had such a great love inside her and when I think of and feel that love it gives me strength.
We have had to learn how to live minute to minute while Samantha was battling through her illness and I think that is how we will have to remain to get through the struggles ahead of us.
We did not make any plans for Easter but are thinking of spending the day at the beach with the boys. We were planning to do a balloon launch for Samantha and figured she loved the beach so that would be a great place to do it from.
We would like to wish everyone a Happy Easter, thank you for checking in on us.
With Love,
Audra, Kurt, Christopher, & Jason